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I still dont see why people say Christmas beings people closer together. I mean, sure, it brings people together cause they have to but i dont necessarily believe it brings people closer. However, my view on New Years has changed. This new Years was slightly different for me. I kinda felt like the first little bloom on a Maple tree in the spring. i felt cold like a newborn but warmth was still around. this New years day to be specific, my boyfriends parents came over and had a great time with my parents, talking, discussing history and politics over alcohol. Lets just say it began to get interesting. It was up and down for me but for hte most part, i dont regret having my father make that phone call to the "future in laws." I never thought that day would really happen considering my family doesnt take me seriously, but it did occur.

There is something about New Years day that makes you think that there is some hope within you legft somewhere. Its so cliche but so true, its like getting a box of spray paints to work with and its all soo new that you cant help but hope for better chances to make greater disasters. It kinda makes you feel like you can actually move that one Jenga piece at the bottom to the towering top of the jenga stack. Its kinda cool in a brutal way, cause you know you gotta do better this year in wahtever it is you want. But having that one cool summer breese, or one glimmer of hope, or little light in the attic makes you feel so much better. i guess im always hoping for the better but still expecting the worse. Nontheless, im not expecting the worse of the worse, which to me is a little better.